For the last six years I’ve been inspired by Irene’s courage on this surreal journey. I’ve shared on many occasions that you can see Jesus in Irene’s eyeballs. Those that know Irene best confirm that observation.
We left the house for UCSF at O’Dark-Thirty this morning for an Ultra Sound and visit with Irene’s Vascular Surgery team because she’s been experiencing excruciating pain after about an hour of dialysis treatment since last Wednesday. Since her treatment lasts about 3.5 hours on Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays, you’ll deduce very quickly how much time she’s endured such agony. The news today was mixed; the good news is that from an anatomical and scientific perspective, her dialysis fistula and cadaver vein are functional; the bad news is that there’s no easy explanation nor is there an elegant mitigation of her forearm pain. So, it’s both painful physical and emotionally at this time. Painfully hard, EMOTIONALLY, because Irene’s resigned to the acute awareness of what’s awaiting when she arrives at the dialysis center. Painfully hard, PHYSICALLY, because Irene is reconciled to the acute awareness of the pain which she must sorely endure.
We’ll be exploring several brainstorming ideas and asking a lot of questions about how to alleviate the unyielding agony….is there a cream, is there a non-narcotic, fast acting and short duration protocol which can be attempted, is there….what…?
In the meantime, her demeanor remains determined to defy the odds and overcome the adverse circumstances set before her. She inspires and humbles me. Those who know her best, see Jesus in her eyeballs.
Thanks for caring,
Dave